What next??!

I've just lately been able to breathe after a long summer vacation of hectic OJT activities. I'm not complaining... I loved both my OJT's! Both companies gave me a chance to have a look at the world where I suppose I will probably be (hopefully) by April of next year.

But at the last day of my second job, I was awake all night till the wee hours of the morning, suffering from what I can only term as my "midlife crisis".

Wikipedia said:
Midlife crisis is a term coined in 1965 by Elliott Jaques and used in Western societies to describe a period of dramatic self-doubt that is felt by some individuals in the "middle years" of life, as a result of sensing the passing of youth and the imminence of old age.

Okkkkaaayyyy...

Being exposed to what life might someday be just made me think if it was all life was cut out to be. I'm afraid that after I've done everything that I have plotted and planned to do in my life, I'll one day realize that I've not done anything worthwhile...

Hmmm... after everything, what next? :s